People keep asking me why I do things that I do,
In all of this measuring influence I forgot you,
You and me hiding behind the Monhegan Motel,
You told me things that nobody around me would tell,
That was the summer that everyone touched me at once,
One day they ignored me, the next, they were all down my pants,
But you were in bed with me, safe, before anyone else,
You opened beside me and held me when I needed help,
You and me lying together at night, my hero,
You've been inside me forever, Judy Blume
I couldn't carry a tune but I thought I could sing,
And no-one had told me that thoughts were a good or bad thing,
But I started noticing grown-ups would smile and cringe,
But you taught me that you could say anything you could think
I don't remember my friends from gymnastics class,
But I remember when Deenie was at the school,
Dance buddy feeling her up in the locker room,
Margaret, bored, counting hats in the synagogue,
Davey was stirring the tea that you wouldn't drink,
Tony was watching his so-called friend shoplifting,
All of them lived in my head, quietly whispering:
"You are not so strange"
I don't remember the details of seventh grade,
All I remember is lying and being afraid,
But I don't forget Katherine and Mike were going all the way,
Steph on the scale in the bathroom alone that day,
Karen pretending to puke so her dad would stay,
Margaret arguing with God while she masturbated,
All of those stacked on my shelf like a love letter,
All of those saying "Amanda you know better,
You are not to blame,
The world's a viscous place,
So go on and think how you want,
You will not be alone in your thoughts,
Well you will but you won't in a way,
'Cos a girl thought it too in a book that the library bought"
People will keep asking me why I do things like I do,
And from now on I'll tell them Nick Cave and I'll talk about you,
Judy, I can't believe sometimes that I'm an adult,
And the girls like I was think that I have this shit figured out,
You and me lying together at night in my room,
You'll be inside them forever, Judy Blume
